Big Girls DO Cry!

So, yes. I have been overly emotional lately...and yesterday was no exception. However, I imagine I would have cried pregnant or not. So what happened you ask? Well, yesterday was Eden's first FULL day in Nursery w/ NO Mommy. I was planning on staying with her because I usually do, and she is not techinaly old enough till 2 weeks from now. Well, when I walked in the door...the nursery teacher said, "You can go. She's fine." So, I quickly said, "ok" and turned around to walk out because I didn't want Eden to get comfy with the idea of me being in the room. As soon as I walked out and shut the door behind me, I felt a lump in my throat starting to grow. I immediatly thought, "Find Stephanie Robertson", because I know she went through this sadness a few weeks ago with "Ambo" (Eden's name for Ambrose). Anyway, I walked half way through the church and didn't see her in any of the usual spots. Then I could feel tears begining to well in my eyes, so I immediatly started looking for a place to hide before anyone asked, "What's wrong?" which would immediatly get the water-works going. So I thought..."Hide in the Mother's room. Maybe Stefanie J is in there and she can comfort you" :-) Unfortunately the Mother's room was on the opposite side of the church from where I was at at that point. SO I had to walk quickly and avoid eye contact in the crowded hall. (People were still headed to class from after sacrament). So, I finally see the mother's room door in sight, and scoot in. Unfortunately there were no mommies in there to share my sorrows with me. So, I sat in the rocker by myself, dug through my diaper bag to find my cell phone to call my own mommy for comfort, but couldn't find it. So, Ipulled out some of Eden's books to read, as I just sat there and cried and cried to myself for a good 5 or 10 minutes (Never read the books, just sat there with them on my lap). ;-) I was thinking how rediculous I will look once someone finally walks in, and kept telling myself she's only gone for 2 hours. And who knows? She could be back with me in 10 minutes give or take a few. Or, I could easily go up there with her. It's not like she's in another country.

Well, I finally pull myself together...dab off my eyes (why did I wear mascara today...I NEVER wear mascara). And step out the door. Well, at the drinking fountain is Eden's nursery teacher and she sees me and asks "So how are you doing Matti?" Then she must have noticed my red eyes cause she said,"Are you ok?" and I said, "It's silly, but I miss Eden" and broke down into tears again in the middle of the hall. She came over gave me a hug and kiss on the cheek and told me I could come up if I wanted and eat snacks with them. I told her I would be all right and that I just needed to get a little more air and walk around a little more. She gave me another hug and told me I was welcome up there if I change my mind.

So, I walked off and decided I should head to class. Jonathon wasn't in there yet, he was still making his rounds getting the teenagers to class. So, I took a seat and tried really hard not to start crying again. About 7 minutes later Jonathon walked in and asked where Eden was and I whispered "In nursery" and started crying again. Just about 6 tears or so while I laid my head on his shoulder.

Well, then I was off to relief society and explained to my friends that Eden was in Nursery and did it without any tears (my voice got a little shaky though). It was really nice though to enjoy class without trying to keep Eden quiet and entertainted, and she must have had a good time there because I didn't see her till after class.

ANYWAY, better get to moving while my cute little monkey is sleeping. Got a LOT to get done in the next 2 days. Thanks for reading my long sad story. Hopefully I will get through this a little easier next week.

P.S. She made up for the lost time last night however when she decided to wake up at 4:30 am and go back to sleep at 6:30. ;-)

I'm in Love, I'm in Love!! And I don't care who knows it!

Actually, first of all let me say thanks to all your sweet posts about my baby belly. ;-)

Next, I am in love with rugs. Yes, I have been dying for a cute rug forever. Well, this morning I did some shopping on overstock for some and I found the following.






These rugs are only $220 (I say only cause the original price is like $800... not because I have $220 laying around). And they are 7.5 feet by 9.5 feet. That's huge! And perfect for my new living space that we will finally be moving into at the beginning of next month. YAY!!!!!!

So, I was a little disheartened by the fact that they are still $220 and I gave myself a rug budget of $50. So, I am wondering if I would be able to sell it for much when we move from here.

Or, option B/C. They have 5x8 for only $150. That's a little more do-able. Or, I can get a 2.5 foot by 7.5 foot runner for only $60. Aaahh. I just don't know what to do. They are so cute.

So, should I decide to get one, which one do you vote for?

The Baby in my Belly

This is what no baby looks like on me.


This is what 13 weeks looks like on me.

Apparently the baby takes away my tan too. ;-)

Mmmmm... Yummy!

So,
I have slowly been gaining back an appetite. Last week I was craving goulash (some call it stroganoff). I am sure I spelled both of those wrong. To make this tasty easy treat you
1. Cook up some ground turkey
2. Add a big can of cream of mushroom soup
3. Throw in a cup or 2 of frozen peas
4. Sprinkle in a bunch of pepper
5. Pour over pasta (and add a little parmesean if you like)
6. Eat and Eat and eat and eat

Anyway, so I made a huge batch of goulash (pronounced "goo-losh") and ate that for breakfast, lunch and dinner for about 3 days. It was soooo good. Since then I've been craving it now and then. So, maybe I"ll make it again late on this week.

But, right now I have a bunch of left-overs of the POT ROAST I made for sunday dinner. I was so proud of myself cause it actually turned out really good. I know, all you good cooks out there are thinking, "how do you mess up a pot-roast?". Well, if there was a way I probably would have found it. Either that, or heavenly father smiled down on me sunday morning and fixed my mistakes because he realised this would be the only food in my house for me to eat sunday...seeing how I ran out of maccaroni and cheese when I ate the last of it sunday morning for breakfast.

Anyway, just thought I'd let you know. If you have ever wanted to try making a pot roast (like me who has wanted to try fot years...literally), it's super easy. Just try it. Throw some meat, potatoes, and carrots in the pot with some water and I used a little stake sauce. Add a bunch of black pepper some garlic salt. Then, leave it for 7 hours and eat it after church. SOOOO delicious. SOOOOOO easy! Give it a try!

Shout Out to Stephanie and Kathy!!

Just wanted to take this opportunity to thank Kathy Smith for making this wonderful pregnancy workout, and my dear friend Stephanie for letting me borrow her wonderful cheesy 1989 Pregnancy Workout DVD. It was great to see their colorful onesie workout outfits with stretch pants and mis-matched scrunch socks.

I've been wanting to get back into working out for a long time now, but haven't had the energy or stomach. So, lately I have been feeling like this. Well, this morning I did the warm up and 10 minutes of the aerobics section and felt so confident I went to the beach and wore no shorts! Haven't done that since I started putting on weight like crazy 4 weeks ago. I've tried a few times to go for walks with Eden, but don't make it more than 1 time around the block cause it's too hot outside, and my heart rate climbs super fast. So, I usually end up feeling dizzy and nautious and go home to eat 2 bowls of cereal in order to feel normal. So, after burning 30 cals on my walk, I go home and eat a good 350+.

I am starting a different workout video next week (in addition to this one). It's called Complete Pregnancy Fitness. I won it on eBay yesteray for about $13 total. Amazon had some pretty good reviews about it, so I'll let you know in a few days what I think.

My goal with this pregnancy is to NOT gain 50 lbs. like I did with the first one. That was NOOOO fun to work off. I tried to workout when I was pregnant with Eden by walking and swimming about 4 days a week at the pool.

Well, that's all for now. Wish me luck (to not gain 50 lbs)! Thanks again Kathy and Stephanie. I feel like a new me. Oh, and just for sentimental-ness. At the end of Kathy's video she has a 5 minute relaxing thing. She goes through guided relaxation and talks about the warm lighted glow going over your baby and around your belly. And I just laid there and thought about how cool it was that there really was a baby in there and I got pretty excited and started feeling pregnant instead of "just sick" if you know what I mean. So, that was pretty cool.

Do the Messes End?

I've been trying to clean for what feels like all day. I am sure however the added total time of true cleaning would be 30-45 minutes. But, it feels like forever when my sweetness is walking around pulling things out of the cupboards and garbage that I just put in the cupboards and garbage. My house has gotten fully out of control since we were planning on moving and I refuse to put things back where I once took them out of. And, being sick and tired for the past few weeks, I haven't felt much like cleaning.

Anyway, this is a pointless blog. Just me venting about how I am sick of my messy house and I really want to move into the new one. I have it all planned out in my mind how beautiful and clean my new house is going to be...free of clutter, and smelly dishes, everything where it is supposed to be, toys in Eden's room, dirty clothes in dirty hampers, food in cupboards. Aaaah, I just really want to move. I need a new space.

Sorry if you had to read this. ;-)
On the positive side...I am feeling well enough to clean my house. So, I guess I better get off the computer and do it.

Oh Baby...

This post is for the Larson's and Rassmussen's (even though they don't read my blog). I just took these photos of Eden the other day with her baby that she LOVES which she got from them for her 1st b-day. Eden LOVES babies, especially this one. Thanks again guys!

Sweet!!

I just noticed on my baby-tracker that I have 199 days to go! That seems like a huge difference compared to 200. It's kinda like when you are trying to lose weight. It feels like a bigger jump from 151 down to 149 than it is from 149 down to 143 cuz that middle number changes...you know?. Especially if you are weighing yourself on one of those scales with the slider. (Only those of you who have ever weighed more than 150 will know what I mean by this). Anyway, just thought I'd share my excitement. And...it's 3:56 and I still feel like a normal person. Have only gotten a little queezy today. Now, let me just see if I can get my house to reflect the way I feel.

Ahhh. The Outdoors.

We've been spending a lot of time outdoors lately thanks to our generous neighbors sharing their huge pool with Eden. Eden loves to play in the water, and lately we haven't been to the beach very often. Actually that's not very new. Eden and I usually don't go to the beach. But, since I've been sick and pregnant I haven't really desired going to the beach. Too much sun makes me sick.

Anyway! Her favorite part about playing outside it walking around with the hose I think. She loves to drink out of it. I often encourage her drinking out of the hose in hopes of avoiding her drinking more water out of the pool... her other favorite outdoor activity.

Yesterday we had a lot of fun with some of the other "local babies" playing in the pool and finger-painting. More paint ended up on the kids than it did on the paper, but that's usually how it goes. It's much more fun that way. (photos to follow. They haven't been downloaded yet.)